It’s official. I’m now a full-time indie game dev!
If you’re pessimist like I usually am you could say “unemployed” but let’s be positive here! My wife is working real hard to turn the pessimist in me into a moderate optimist so I got to make some efforts After working at the same place for 11 years I am now gone. It was my first job ever so yes it’s a bit scary to be on my own but it’s also exciting.
My main project will be Star Corsairs which will be my second MMO. Now that I write that it feels weird a bit. How many indie devs you know have worked on 2 MMOs? Surely I’m not alone but it still feels a bit special … or crazy … whatever.
Of course I live in Canada so it means I’ll get some help in some way to start my indie business. I’m now working to get all the financial help I can get because you know I still need to eat and pay the house. I’m however also looking at ways I could invite people to participate early in my effort to develop Star Corsairs. I managed to build, release and keep alive a first MMO for 3 years now so maybe it’s time I use this to my advantage. I’m not quite sure how yet but it might be anything from “early Star Corsairs package for players” or maybe even some kind of sponsorship from people who would like to support me and have their brand/game appear on the website of Star Corsairs. It will depend how much work each initiative will require but I’m not ruling anything out for now.
Now I’d like to thank some people as for me it’s a big day and it’s not just something that is happening by my only will. I’ve met people who had a major impact on my life and the result so far is this day.
My first and only employer so far Direct Impact Consulting:
I knocked on their door with no diploma in hand (long story) but they gave me a chance anyway. I finally got my diploma and spent the next 11 years there. The core of my “professional personality” comes from working there so that’s something I will never forget. There were ups and downs yes but that got me to where I am today. One nice memory from working there is beating the crap out of everyone playing Delta Force on lunch break
Anyone who played Golemizer:
First the GMs, all the nice players but also all those who were banned. Yep! Even the banned ones. That gave me experience on how to manage troublemakers so it’s still useful. But mostly all the nice players that found in Golemizer something special. If nobody would have enjoyed Golemizer then I wouldn’t try today to go on my own to build another MMO. I’ve always be amazed how some players were ready to help me and it makes working on a MMO quite some special job.
Oh I wrote this guy many mails in my early days working on Golemizer. I then had the chance to work with him and if you have to find one definitive event that turned me into a “real” game developer it’s me meeting Brian. Even if people around you may support what you do it comes to a point where you NEED to talk to someone who went through something similar to what you are living/doing. Besides helping me on the game dev level he also helped me to believe in myself and get used to the critic and indifference game devs are often subject to. He’s basically my link to reality for what game development is.
Last but surely not least my wife:
I was joking above how she was working hard to turn me into a moderate optimist but it’s true. You have no idea what the loved one must endure from a game dev sometimes. Of course you believe in yourself otherwise you wouldn’t do anything but you’re always adding a “but” somewhere and that can really get on the nerves of the one who lives with you. I can also imagine how heartbreaking it must be to see the person you love not getting good results even though you know he put his heart and soul into his work while you are helpless there not quite understanding everything going on. The fact is I don’t ask her to understand everything I do. I’m just grateful for her to be there.
What I keep saying is that if it was easy then everybody would be doing it. It’s true. It also means that chances are that you’ll face many defeats before one day hoping to get where you want to be. It’s easier for some and for others not so much. And when you’re part of that last category you really need someone to stand beside you. There are days I’m telling myself that it would be so much easier to just give up and go find an easy well paid job somewhere, sit on my ass and wait to get old to sleep all day long. But I can’t do that. I need to do what I really want to do. I owe this to myself but also I owe this to my wife. I owe this for her support, her presence and her unconditional belief in me.
Once more this is only the beginning. Sure it never ends but it’s what makes it exciting.
If you’re reading this then you are part of my journey so thanks to you.